I finally clicked on my own link and went to Mike Wieringo's website. I only got as far as his brother and best friend's addresses.
It just keeps shaking me up. Everything they said is true. Life is short and we need to take advantage of all the opportunities we have to love one another now.
But I'm getting so terrified that more people that I love will be taken away too. If Mike Wieringo can be snatched away from his cat, and his brother, and his best friend, then what is keeping My Hero in my life? Or My Friend The Doctor? And everyone else I need?
This is why there is religion. We need something to give us hope beyond this material loss of life, energy, and love. We live through our connection to one another. When those connections are severed, we lose a little bit of our own lives too. That just hurts so much.
And I'm not equipped well to feel secure about death. Death and me have a bad track record.
Out of everyone left that I know and love, I want to be the next one to go. Because I don't want to live without any single one of them.
I just don't.