When I Need A Pick Me Up, by my friend Ryan King

Monday, January 28, 2008

Purpose

What is your life's purpose?



Tell me
Just what you want me to be
One kiss
And boom you're the only one for me
So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm crying
Outside the door of your candy store

[Chorus]
It just takes a little bit of this
A little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now we we're up to bat
A little bit of laughs
A little bit of pain
I'm telling you, my babe
It's all in the game of love....

..Is
Whatever you make it to be
Sunshine instead of this cold lonely sea
So please baby try and use me for what I'm good for
It ain't sayin' goodbye
It's knocking down the door of your candy store

[Chorus]

It's all in this game of love

You roll me
Control me
Console me
Please hold me
Do guide me
Divide me
Into more...

[Guitar solo]

So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm dying outside the door of your loving store

[Repeat Chorus]

It's all in this game of love
It's all in the game of love
Yeah, in the game of love

Roll me
Control me
Please hold me
(Make me feel good, yeah)

I'm out here on my own
On my own...


Again the lyrics are so amazingly accurate to what it seems my life's purpose has become. I imagine that in the future it will be a lot less pursuit and a lot more maintenance. But for now? For right now?

Tell me just what you want me to be.
One kiss. And BOOM.

So please tell me why don't you come around no more?

Love is whatever you make it to be.
Sunshine instead of this cold lonely sea.

I am so willing to be controlled, rolled, held, guided and divided into more than what I am now. That'd be just fine. It takes a whole lot of trust, but that's what my life is all about these days. I'm looking for someone I can trust this much.

It just takes a little bit of this and a little bit of that.

Just one thing is different now. Thanks to the blogworld, I don't feel like I'm out here on my own.

Not here on my own ...

10 comments:

Me said...

So please baby try,
And use me for what I'm good for.

Scott said...

Had any more conversations with Dream Girl?

Me said...

No. Since the phone convo, I left it off with her going to call or contact me with a place to meet. I figured to give her the freedom to have me, or not to.

I mean, I'm so needy anymore but I just can't become that guy. I want her company so much that I'm petrified to lose it by pushing and appearing as desperate as I feel.

Scott said...

Good thinking, Alan.

Me said...

Okay.

But fair warning...if I discover she's getting married somewhere, I'm going to plaster myself against the church window and wail her name.

In my last years in MO, I was going out with a woman who was 40 as compared to my 37. She was so possessive and clingy that I had to run. I couldn't breathe. Hand-holding with her was like wrestling with a vulture's claw.

That's the person I cannot become.

TK Kerouac said...

Hi alan
I've seen you commenting on Karmas blog, I'm sending you a private invite

GrizzBabe said...

Alan, I admire your determination not to become Needy Guy. That attitude will serve this relationship well. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!

Me said...

Thanks, TK. I've seen you there too. Any relation to Jack?

Grizz, cross your toes too. Taking all the help I can get...

Vi said...

Hey, you are never alone in blogland! And good thinking with Dream girl. You cracked me up with the wailing at the church comment!

Determined said...

Hey,
I agree with Vi! You're never alone in blogland. I'm also keeping my fingers crossed for you!