And mind you, I had realized I was already happy.
This thing is so crazy, how we met (re-met), but it happened just last night and she is the girl of my dreams. There are so many things about her that I can't begin to describe. And I actually cannot. You could find this girl on the web if I gave enough details away, and so I will not. She has nothing to do with the bloglife we've all established--that I can say.
All the signs are there. We were only going to chat for 1/2 an hour and we chatted for an hour and a 1/2. We were instantly familiar with each other the second we laid eyes. Her name had been popping up on my radar for months already, and by the freakiest of circumstances, there she was in person. She gave me her phone number and her email address and I'm about 25% afraid but 90% excited (yes, there's an overlap) and I know I'm not quite exactly where I wanted to be in my adult life, but I've started it and so I'm going to present what I've got and let her choose if she wants what I've got or not.
And this is so incredibly kismet, so absurdly above me, that even I would not have written this as a novel. I would not have had the imagination enough. This is like a dream unfolding as I watch, where when I wake up, I'll look back and marvel at how my brain put it all together--only it's not my brain. It's life. It can't be random. And if it's God, then he really REALLY likes me.
Should I be in love right now? I'm too fascinated to say "love". I'm still in shock. I'm still waiting to wake up.
I'm just saying--she and I go way back, and it feels awesome to have this reconnection. It's grounding. Feels like I've suddenly shot roots into the earth. Right now, I'm looking forward to having this amazing new friend, reliving old times, and experiencing amazing new ones.
And if it goes further--well, I really won't know how to act.
That's where you guys are going to have to come in. :-)