tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post1182359504015274868..comments2023-04-06T05:51:09.863-04:00Comments on MAD @ GOD: Obsessively Analytical. StillMehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02926157658538605081noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post-36137813032150857692010-09-17T09:32:11.963-04:002010-09-17T09:32:11.963-04:00I get it now ;-) Thanks Hon!I get it now ;-) Thanks Hon!Terahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05237609498669814077noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post-20099330293448565712010-09-16T22:26:32.944-04:002010-09-16T22:26:32.944-04:00I hear you, Grizz. And I'm not the manliest m...I hear you, Grizz. And I'm not the manliest man on the block either. I'm way more Jack than I am Will, if truth be told. These pages will attest -- I got a lot of gay in me (teehee. See? Who says 'teehee'?).Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02926157658538605081noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post-34367455324099596162010-09-16T21:33:44.121-04:002010-09-16T21:33:44.121-04:00My roommate is a lesbian and she's currently h...My roommate is a lesbian and she's currently holding out for a "lipstick lesbian". You know, a lesbian that doesn't look like she's a lesbian? Even though she, herself, very much resembles a lesbian stereotype.<br /><br />I try to get her to be a little more open-minded. I've seen gay couples where both men are effeminate and I've seen many a butch lesbian couple. Some of these couples have been together a LONG time. They've built incredible lives together and they seem insanely happy. Ultimately, I think that's what it's about.GrizzBabehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07229663134377237230noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post-88067800824013752892010-09-16T18:04:24.472-04:002010-09-16T18:04:24.472-04:00Hello again, Tera!
1) The math seemed correct.
2) ...Hello again, Tera!<br />1) The math seemed correct.<br />2) Gay "sounds" like when you hear a guy speak and the first thing you think is, "Is he gay?" This is why I said it was so effed up. Because I'm such a victim of wrong-headed thinking. Or, a subject of it. Tera, I dig the straight man. I like masculinity. It is so freaking attractive to me. I just want to gobble up the blunt-edged, plodding, manly man-man. I love those muscles, the deep voice, the hairy this n thats. My gut response is not for a guy that is like a girl--it's for a guy who is like a GUY!<br />Now, this would be an exercise in futility if I didn't know that there are a lot of gay men who appear straight. "Sound" straight. "Act" straight. I've seen them advertise themselves as such. And you know like I know that Hollywood and especially the soap operas are FULL of these type of gay men. I want one of those.<br /><br />But my date was the first guy who likes me for me. And when he doesn't speak, he has that rugged manly look, with a slighter build and not much definition.<br /><br />And so I'm telling myself that I'm doing him and myself a disservice for being shallow and swayed by the prejudices against the gay male which led me where I'm at in the first place.<br /><br />But on the other hand, I like what I like. So I think I can learn to let myself go with this guy, but I get the feeling 'll always be wanting the Jason Stathams of the world.<br /><br />And since this is all new to me, I can only apply the principle of dating life to myself--I can't have them all. Someone else is always going to look better than the one I have. Commitment is a conscious choice. Being adult means being responsible with how you act towards people.<br /><br />AND, "sounding" gay is not wrong. My date doesn't deserve to be rejected because of how he sounds.<br /><br />Yeah.<br /><br />3) See above. I didn't kiss him because I didn't want to go that far. I wanted to get used to the fact that I'm gay. I wanted to get it in my head. And I didn't want to give him a signal that I'm all the way there yet. AND, I've got all those years under my belt of avoidance. NOT doing was easier than doing.<br /><br />But I can tell you, thinking about it was exciting. Being that close to it was exciting. Really for the first time in my life exciting. Just the thought of kissing, alone, I mean. With girls it was an "I need to do this to get to the next level" and then of course, I never went to any next level. But with this ... and when I say exciting ... well, I mean ... y'know. "Exciting." I mean ... well ... for a man. You know. I was "excited." Somewhat.<br /><br />Gah. You know what I mean.Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02926157658538605081noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post-40028435390019972902010-09-16T13:42:39.016-04:002010-09-16T13:42:39.016-04:00Well helllloooo there! It's been a while, and...Well helllloooo there! It's been a while, and my my my, I return to you having a date? That's fantastic! I do however have 3 comments/questions...<br /><br />1) Your use of 45 minus (vs. 40 plus) moves me :-)<br /><br />2) What exactly does gay "sound" like? LOL!<br /><br />3) Do you think there is a reason (other than the fact that maybe you weren't ready) that you didn't want to kiss him? I mean you say a couple of times that he likes you...how do you feel about him?<br /><br />Can't wait to hear about the next date!Terahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05237609498669814077noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post-59605173624234957202010-09-15T22:48:04.385-04:002010-09-15T22:48:04.385-04:00YOU are absolutely amazing. You're such a frie...YOU are absolutely amazing. You're such a friend to me, Angela. You've been riding along this rollercoaster all the way. I don't know what I could've done without you. Thank you x (a sideways eight).Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02926157658538605081noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7364249691989051292.post-57868763113990349062010-09-15T21:56:58.293-04:002010-09-15T21:56:58.293-04:00Just. Look. At. You. Just. Look at you. Did you th...Just. Look. At. You. Just. Look at you. Did you think ever in your life that you'd be at this point? Ever. You are absolutely amazing. It hasn't been easy, but slowly but surely you have progressed along the path of self-acceptance. Kudos! 'Cause not everybody gets there.<br /><br />And The Fiance had to wait 6-months before I kissed him. And quite a while after that before he got anything closely resembling REAL action.GrizzBabehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07229663134377237230noreply@blogger.com